Thanks for being a bright star in our journey, Suzy
Throughout my second pregnancy, I had planned for a VBAC (vaginal birth after Cesarean). Upon learning that I was carrying an overachieving acrobat inside of me who decided to turn breech, I was overrun with emotions. My first pregnancy ended in a pretty traumatic experience with a Cesarean. In four years, I have struggled to think back and find much joy in the experience of giving birth.
Given that we only had a couple days to process this and head into Bronson for our Cesarean, I had to attempt to get a handle on my emotions pretty quickly. I thought I had it covered pretty well, then in walked Suzy. Her compassion and expertise were evident from the beginning. I remember feeling very relieved when I found out that she’d be in the OR with us. But I feel the most incredible quality she showed me that day was her impeccable communication abilities. I hadn’t really addressed my emotions at all, I just thought I had! There was a lot of trauma and fear from my first delivery that I didn’t want to revisit. Had Suzynot come into our story, I would have risked having a similar situation to my first birth. Even though I knew I wanted everything to be different this time around, I wasn’t sure how to say what I was feeling.
She was… Amazing. She pulled all of the feelings out of me in that triage room. She allowed me to be raw and honest about the delivery with my first child. She validated my fears. She listened. She assured me that she would give me her all to make this time different. And boy, was it ever.
I am forever grateful to Suzyfor the memories that I have of my son’s birth. The whole experience was beautiful. One of the things we talked about was my regret for not having any photos from the delivery with my daughter. I gave her permission to take photos of us on my phone, and they are now some of my most cherished memories. They are absolutely amazing.
My only hope is that she somehow understands what she did for me. I had four years of bottled up feelings that she helped process effortlessly with me. The interaction I had with her that day has started a much deeper healing process within myself. When I reflect on this birth experience, I tell others that I am so thankful that I got to have another Cesarean. I got a do-over. And because of Suzy, It went exactly as it should have.
Thanks for being a bright star in our journey, Suzy. We appreciate you.
Suzanne Greydanus-Rutgers, BSN, RN, is a Labor & Delivery nurse at Bronson Methodist Hospital. She is the recipient of the Q3 2019 DAISY Award. Learn more about the Award, or nominate another Bronson nurse who has gone above and beyond to ensure exceptional care for patients and families.